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| quote of the day: And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.- Romans 8:28 what a crazy quarter. i cant believe how long its lasted -________-;;; i feel like the things i did at the beginning of this quarter was soooooooo long ago. WCSC's Visibility Week feels like MONTHS ago when it was only really like 3 weeks ago. wtf. anyway. i've been feeling very weary and deflated lately :( i think its a combination of stress and anxiety and sadness and tension. i'm in disbelief that wherever i go, there's always so much drama and stuff to deal with. everyone at this school is seriously on crack or something ahhhhhhhhh x________o apartment is an unhappy home which is unfortunate considering i have nowhere else to go. and i have to decide on what to do next year. should i stay on campus for another year?! or leave.... i feel like living with different friends might be a nice change. things just really didnt work out for me this year. =\ i also didnt apply to CKI board which made me pretty sad, esp when they announced the new board. i'm soooooo happy for them though :) they will be great. and my big is amazingly awesome :D so glad i can count on him whenever i want. running for WCSC treasurer instead >.< so scared. campaigning has been such a BITCH. like no joke. politics really suck :( so much stress. and actually not from school. just the social aspects of my very sad life :( i went to large group yesterday and ending up just totally breaking down at the end. i'm just so humbled by the things i've had to face and been challenged with this quarter. i just feel so worried all the time about things and it shows. someone told me today that they just looked into my eyes and knew something was wrong despite me saying that i was ok :( so sad. anyway, i'm so incredibly grateful for my IV family <3 they always know what to say and i think i just really needed prayer from a very good friend. please pray for me! i'm praying that love in our apartment can be received and given in the correct way and that hearts will be healed and calmed. tyyyy. FINALS
_PHYS 2B - monday
_BICD 100 - tuesday
_ECON 2 - wednesday
_CHEM 140A - thursday
then freeeeeedom. and i'm excited because i'm actually staying here for spring break in my apartment :) i need some good alone time and space away from people for a while. so excited for that. i'm sooooooo looking forward to next quarter. last quarter of the year. and should be a much more lax class schedule. though i'm busy from like 8-6 every day :( lol but so excited for BIBC 103 (biochem lab), BIBC 102 (metabolic biochem), CHEM 140B (ochem), PHYS 2BL (physics lab), and VIS 127B (arts of china) (plus work, OL training, oasis workshop, cki, iv, wcsc....... >.<). but i love being so busy all the time. keeps me from being bored. just lately the stress level is going a little too far >.< i need to figure out my summer though :( i really want to stay here for summer school cuz i really need to catch up :( someone house me! >.< | | |
| I feel loved when...The Five Love Languages My Primary Love Language is Quality Time| My Detailed Results: |
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| Quality Time: | 10 | | Physical Touch: | 7 | | Acts of Service: | 7 | | Words of Affirmation: | 4 | | Receiving Gifts: | 2 |
About this quiz Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak. Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is. Take the Quiz!
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| story from elsewhere:
One day I was feeling really down, and approached my mother. She listened to my problems, then brought me to the kitchen and boiled a pot of water. She took out a carrot, and put it into the boiling water. She pointed out that the carrot turned soft. Then she took out an egg, and again put that into the water. The egg, my mother then observed, turned hard. Finally, she took out a coffee bean, and immersed that into the water and immediately, the water turned brown. My mother said, "You see, child, in life you have three choices. You can turn soft from your surroundings like a carrot, you can turn hard like an egg, or you can change your environment like a coffee bean. It's up to you what to choose, but in life you should always strive to be a coffee bean.”
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| quote of the day: “The heart loves, but moods have no loyalty. Moods should be heard but never danced to." - Hugh Prather (American best selling Author, Lecturer and Minister) oh life :( though i've had a fairly good weekend (complete with the normal drama, though up a notch a little, tears, laughter, being sorry for things you don't mean), i'm still very discontent with my life. retaking ochem is a terribly humbling experience. not only is it totally boring to relearn something you already learned a quarter ago, it sucks cuz you realized you really did know a lot more than you gave yourself credit for; the teacher was either totally ridic or i really did have an off quarter :( kevin looked at my tests from last quarter and said he had no idea what any of it was asking for :( FML. physics. boring. even though that class makes me do work all the time, it's still relatively easy. econ. never go. though i should since the midterm is already next week. genetics. amazingly confusing all of a sudden. i think because it finally went more in dept than any other genetics thing i've ever taken before and this is the only class i worry constantly about because there is no curve and i also have no idea what i'm doing. it turned out to have a lot more math involved than i hoped for >.>;;; i lost a sense of security in people i usually trust. and i dont feel like i'm expanding as much as i used to. i feel very limited for some reason. making decisions is very time consuming have to decide whether to run for an elected position on council. i think the only thing stopping me is assurance that i will do a good job. i'd hate to let everyone down. and i want to stay publicist only because i know that i'm already really good at it and i've already done it for a million other clubs for years. time to expand? i dont know anything about being a treasurer :( and i suck at math no longer pursuing a religion, but a relationship with the one that brings light to my life :) happy valentine's day (weekend)
happy president's day (yay for no school)
happy 20 months <3
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